We're Expecting!!!

It's all the buzz around our house. We got the call Monday afternoon from our agency asking if we would be interested in taking in a 17 month old baby boy. He will only be here till June or so, but we are excited to love on this little guy and show him God's love. We continue to pray for our little Le's protection and for him to return home to us. In the mean time God is calling us to love on another sweet baby that needs a safe place to stay. Thank you God, that you are growing us and teaching us, both individually and as a family.

Show me Your Glory...

Our church family is a great blessing to us! We first stepped into it's doors, the Sunday before Easter, almost two years ago. Upon entering, God placed one of my dearest friends to welcome us. Although, we weren't friends before entering, He quickly knit our hearts together as we talked about our families, homeschooling, and our need for a church family. Almost two years later, this family, as well as several other families, have walked with us through the death of my mother, troubles with our teen, welcoming a new baby into our family, troubles with extended family, and now the loss of the baby. They know our hearts and our family and they choose to love us still. They are a huge source of encouragement and our go to for prayer. It amazes us to see how broken their hearts have been for us. Many have shed tears with us and have stressed their heartbreak. Just last Sunday, we were touched and moved by the emotions of one of our youth pastors. For the youth lesson, he had planned specifically to teach on The Death of Lazarus. He asked our oldest to read John 11:1-44. As she read the story, she knew immediately how the story pertained to our lives right now. This past week, I have read and reread the story over and over. I too see the parallels to our situation.

Last Saturday, my husband and I visited our spiritual birthplace, The Village Church. As we listened to one of the pastors speak on Moses and his relationship with God, he had us look at the verses where Moses asked to see God's glory, as well as the verses where he begs God to continue on with him and the Israelites as they headed to the promise land. Moses says "if you don't go with us, then I don't want to go!" I have felt that way all week long. I believe that Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead and I believe that He can and will bring our little Le home again. I believe that God passed by Moses and allowed him to see His glory. We are waiting on His timing, trusting that He is using all things for His glory and His good. Lord, if you're not in this, then I don't want to do it! I don't want to go on, if You're not going with us! Show me Your Glory!!!

Goodbye...for now

Last time I posted, we were awaiting the Judges' decision on Le staying with us, or returning to his birth parents. It pains me to write that he decided to send him to them. Le has been out of our house now for five days and boy does my heart ache. I long to hold him, to feed him, to change him, to comfort him, and to look into his deep brown eyes, and him know how much he is loved! God, continue to hold him and guard his heart, mind, soul, and body!

Waiting is so hard...

So, I haven't talked much on here about the struggles we have been battling, with our littlest one and CPS wanting to return him to his birth parents, but today we are waiting to hear what the judge has decided. It's especially hard because the judge is know for siding with CPS. Although we felt like he was really listening and taking things that were said to heart, his reputation proceeds him . Today I am nervous! I really want to know what he has decided, but then again, there is a part of me that wants to just continue on, pretending that things will be the same. Believing that Le will be ours forever.

I have said this a million times, but I don't know how people get through storms like these without the Lord. I am blessed to a daughter of the King! It is through His strength, His joy, His peace, and His promises that I can fight on. Standing strong in His word, knowing that His purposes will prevail. I pray that He is made famous and He is glorified through whatever the outcome is today and the days to come! My God is an Awesome God and He reigns on Heaven and Earth! Praise be to the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit!!!